Pray this prayer out loud. Is it something you can say with conviction?
Lord, You know what is best for me.
Give me what You will
and when You will
and as much as You will.
Do with me as You know best
and as it pleases You
and brings You the most honour.
Place me where You will
and guide me according to Your wisdom.
I am in Your hand
as Your servant
ready to do all that You command.
I want to live,
not for myself,
but for You alone.
I want to live worthily
and profitably
and to Your honour.
Taken from Following Christ: Prayers from IMITATION OF CHRIST in the Language of Today by Ronald Klug, Concordia Press, 1981, p.16.